Hi there,
How are you? How was your first month of 2022? Mine was nothing I ever thought it would be. Let’s just say that now I have two birthdays instead of one, and I am grateful for this. I didn’t ask for the second one to be honest, but deep down in my mind when I read about people celebrating two birthdays, I wonder how do you even get the second one? Now I know. I guess this is a story for another time. Anyway.
Thank you so much for welcoming me into your inbox, I know the world is a very loud place at the moment and choosing to let me come to you once a month makes me extremely happy.
What is Mina’s Journal?
Mina’s Journal is a newsletter written by me, Jasmina Haskovic, photographer and writer. Author of a poetry book called “ask the butterfly”.
Why Mina’s Journal?
I wanted to start a newsletter for years and was always finding excuses why not to do so. One of the main excuse was that English is not my first language and there are so many people out there who would say things way better than me. And grammatically correct too. I was embarrassed by what people would think if I make a mistake before, I even actually made one. I was just generally speaking scared and decided to be silent instead.
I wish I could say I am ready now with years gone by, and having been in the same job industry since I moved to the UK. Or it’s about time to do something else for myself now when I am secure and safe. But in reality, I will never be ready. There will never be the right time. I will always have a very good excuse to not start. Any excuse will do, just to stay still. And why? Comfort. Because it's more comfortable. It's better like this. I know this feeling very well now. Stay safe, stay put, don't move, as soon as I finish this I will … {insert anything you are putting off}, it's a big world out there, it's scary and cold,.... she said and much more after she moved to another country without visiting it ever before and without knowing anyone. {Facepalm}.
The fact is, whenever we are trying to do something new our instinct will be like, will I be be safe? The answer is no, there is no guarantee for anything, but I can try my best. In the time I have. I am sure you will agree with me there are some things we have control over and some we don't. So, what do I do?
On a daily basis I think about time a lot, not sure if you are aware or not, but time is running all the time and it doesn't stop. I don't know if you watched that movie with Amanda Seyfried and Justin Timberlake called In time, if not go and watch it honestly. Let me know what do you think about it, I am curious to know. We all think about time consciously or subconsciously whether we like it or not. We have to be at work in a specific time, we have to meet someone at a specific time, we need to get to the shops on time. Which made me think about time. For me only.
What about time for me? What about my own time?
And because I couldn't come up with the answer until today, I said to myself, let me do one little thing for me, now, today. I will start writing my newsletter, because I love reading them and they make me happy. I don't know about what, but I will write something, anything, just to write. To take some time for me only, any little time for me now is needed, very important. Now more then ever. To make myself happy, a tinny tinny bit. If you also need someone to say now, here is your now. I am giving you my now. Time is now. Do it today, as far as it is not killing someone or doing something against their will. Just saying.
It’s a scary thing, doing something out of your comfort zone. But end of the day it doesn't matter anymore and I am respecting my fears, don't understand me wrong. Sometimes fear is good and sometimes it just need to step aside. In my case, end of the day it doesn't matter anymore as far it's written down somewhere :) As proof, that I existed. I lived once upon a time. Or let me correct myself, I live now, so these are Little Life Letters from Jasmina Haskovic. Born and raised in Slovenia, half Bosnian half Montenegrian, living in London. Welcome to Little Life Letters.
Because you found yourself reading this giving me some of your time I urge you to take some time for yourself too. As far as we are showing up for ourselves we can do this thing, called life. If you ever feel you would like to reply back to this email to say something by all means.
Love,
Jasmina
Your Little Letter made my morning. Reading your thoughts and thinking of you, my dear friend, gives me a feeling that we are still connected even if we are physically far away.
For many years I deal with my fears that prevent my personal growth. The moment to liberate myself from the fear (comfort zone) and to start a new path is never the right one. Obviously "the right moment" will never come so I should just make a decision and step out of the ring on a completely random day...
You are more than ready!! ♥️